Well,
now allow me to introduce myself informally. I am a Russian woman
with an Italian last name, living in California… My
journey - the story of my own healing - has become the poster child
for my work.
I graduated from the College of Arts in Russia in 1980 as an actor.
After working in a theater for 9 months I had a powerful realization
that all my training in performing arts was about my skills to act
as somebody else. It left me with no identity of my own! When I
was not playing something I was not, I did not know who I was! Throughout
the years of my theater school I was taught that it takes a lot
of talent to pretend to be somebody else. The realization that happened
to me was that it takes a lot more of a talent to stop pretending.
I left the stage and never looked back.
Ever since then I was engaged in many very different activities
in economical, political, spiritual fields of Russian reality. They
all had a common theme for me. Whatever area I was focused on, -
it was the energy of a breakthrough that I was after. Surrealistic
twilight absurdity of Mother Russia was calling for some changes!
Nine years later another powerful realization occurred! It suddenly
became clear to me where I needed a breakthrough the most was in
my own personal life! I was looking into my new baby’s beautiful
eyes, freshly out of my 6th marriage. Changing the world around
me and trying to save the humankind did not pay in family-valued
currency; it did not make up for me not being present in my body.
I stopped everything, moved to America and started my life from
scratch, again. I had to learn to speak a new language, to drive,
to do the shopping “American style”, to be a mother,
but most of all to figure out, finally, who or what and why I am.
When I remove the ways of identifying myself through my activities
or belief systems, what’s left..?
Gradually, I’ve obtained an infinite fascination with such
a complex “event” as a human being. As that is exactly
how I perceive any individual I’ve ever met on my path –
as a multidimensional, ever-evolving event, - not as solid, “carved-in-stone”
object. I see myself as a curious, shape-shifting, little explorer,
moving through the vastness of our Universe… I found it a
comfortable place to be and enjoy any kind of activity, even if
I’d wish to return to my theatrical career, I can do that
without causing myself any damage.


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Elena
at Home
with daughter Christina |
Elena
caught the Baby!!!
Igor Charkovsky
is on the left. (Note how clean the water is- no discharge
to speak of.) |
Mr.
Gorbachev and Elena, May 2000 |

Waterbabies
Club Standing
up, right to left: Igor Charcovsky, Elena Tonetti, Tatyana
Sargunas, with Tsvetana in her arms. Moscow, 1985 |
Elena
with parents
Marina and Vlad, Christmas
2002 |
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